Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Things I feel and want to write but do to my lack of language skills I can't. A word can say a thousand things. A lot of times I wish I wasn't raised in immigrant camps. And I wish I had a normal childhood. With stability and my own house. With parents who spoke English and didn't rely on their 10 year old son to order for them at Mcdonalds. That I could express in detail with words what I feel. That I didn't have to go to Thesaurus. com when I didn't understand a word. That I wasn't undocumented. That I was born in the US and was a citizen. That I didn't have to worry about paying for college.
But then I realize if all those things were to come true in my life then I wouldn't be me. And I couldn't have that.
I'm thankful for the things God has done in my life. For the experiences I've had.
Blessed to know how it feels to have the straps of an apple picking bag weighdown on your pre-teen shoulders as you struggle to walk it over the apple bin to unload. Thankful for the pain I felt bending over as I picked asparagus for 2 hours in the morning before heading over to school. Thankful for graspping that cold aluminum ladder in order to reach the very top of that granny smith tree instead of watching the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on those cold saturday mornings. All those experiences amongst others make me who I am today. And I'm thankful God has me in His grasp, and I'm thankful I can curl up and cry when life's digest gets hard knowing He has me.
Thank you Jesus.

2 Comments:

Blogger Philip said...

That is some really great insight into God's pressence in your life. I hope more people are able to see that in their own lives.

12:37 PM  
Blogger justj3n said...

Not only would you not be the person you are today but you would have other wishes as well. With every life comes a different set of challenges and problems. Who knows what you could be wishing for in another life.
Trust me - even the most educated people go to Thesaurus.com. :)
True a word can say a thousand things but an action transcends all (most) language barriers.

2:03 PM  

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