I just got done eating dinner it was good. I had chicken and vegetables plus tofu. I think tofu is also a vegetable. The dinner was good. Eating by myself wasn't too good. I hate having to eat on my own.
I was part of a community dinner that got together once of week but they started meeting on a day that didn't work out for me so I couldn't be part of it anymore. I miss that a lot. Because i was able to catch up with people from the community. Now, I hardly see or know whats going on with anyone.
Now, i'm attending this other church which i thought was going to be more community than it is. There are a few people that I know and I attend a care group. But outside of church and care group. I really don't know many of the members. Except for Trey and Tim. I meet with them once in a while.
I met with Trey last week and he was encouraging me to keep atttending church there. He thinks that I could get more than what i've been getting out of it. My inclinations were to pull back.
But I have a new plan of action.
I'm gonne continue to go. And try to be more proactive when it comes to "fellowship". Because maybe is just me. I'm the one that doesn't know how to fellowship. And be part of a church. Is it me? I don't know
What ever the answer is I'm gonne try to be more proactive in that area.
I think part of the reason for not being encouraged to continue is the response I've gotten from some of the members. But again i might just be reading into things to much. What ever the case maybe. I said I was gonne attend this church for at least until early march. It it works out I might decide to stay longer. If now i'm just gonne continue to find a church that sees to my needs.
Some of those needs are defenetly having to do with my ethnic background. I know some of might say that I'm wrong and that the common denominator is Christ and that we shouldn't have to focus on race and all that. To all of you who say that I say you are wrong. Race plays a big part in my life. In all my life.
I just thought of something. Another reason for wanting to be part of such a church is that at times I don't feel like I don't belong. And again i feel down on myself but I just thought of this great verse that say "the son of man doesn't have a place to lay his head" and that is the truth. I don't have to be like, to fit in. I just have to be sensitive to the spirit and to Gods voice.
Ok. I think i wrote enough for today. This has been extremely good for me. Every time I write is like therapy.
I was part of a community dinner that got together once of week but they started meeting on a day that didn't work out for me so I couldn't be part of it anymore. I miss that a lot. Because i was able to catch up with people from the community. Now, I hardly see or know whats going on with anyone.
Now, i'm attending this other church which i thought was going to be more community than it is. There are a few people that I know and I attend a care group. But outside of church and care group. I really don't know many of the members. Except for Trey and Tim. I meet with them once in a while.
I met with Trey last week and he was encouraging me to keep atttending church there. He thinks that I could get more than what i've been getting out of it. My inclinations were to pull back.
But I have a new plan of action.
I'm gonne continue to go. And try to be more proactive when it comes to "fellowship". Because maybe is just me. I'm the one that doesn't know how to fellowship. And be part of a church. Is it me? I don't know
What ever the answer is I'm gonne try to be more proactive in that area.
I think part of the reason for not being encouraged to continue is the response I've gotten from some of the members. But again i might just be reading into things to much. What ever the case maybe. I said I was gonne attend this church for at least until early march. It it works out I might decide to stay longer. If now i'm just gonne continue to find a church that sees to my needs.
Some of those needs are defenetly having to do with my ethnic background. I know some of might say that I'm wrong and that the common denominator is Christ and that we shouldn't have to focus on race and all that. To all of you who say that I say you are wrong. Race plays a big part in my life. In all my life.
I just thought of something. Another reason for wanting to be part of such a church is that at times I don't feel like I don't belong. And again i feel down on myself but I just thought of this great verse that say "the son of man doesn't have a place to lay his head" and that is the truth. I don't have to be like, to fit in. I just have to be sensitive to the spirit and to Gods voice.
Ok. I think i wrote enough for today. This has been extremely good for me. Every time I write is like therapy.
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