Hey ya'll I hope everyone is having a great time. I've never mentioned this to anyone before but ever since I felt God's presence in my life and claimed my faith mine. I've been on a search. A search that involves a lot of ideas, ideals, reasons, customs, beliefs, ways of thinking and culture. Trying to find the true meaning of being a Christian. It's hard to get to such point in life, where you truly understand what it is. Everyday I try to live my life the way i feel God wants me too. But it seems like i never make it. But i have a peace that tell me I did a good job.

And i wish i can do more. I try to make God the center of my life and obey his commands and truly believe that He will take care of me but i fall short. I let my feelings of not being able to fundraise enough money to survive get in the way. Or not being able to reach the kid that i was trying to reach that week. Even expectations that I have from people in my own ministry. Even my reltionship with my girlfriend at times gets in the way. LIke today i felt like i needed to spend the day with my Savior to pray, read but she didn't see like that. She saw it as me not wanting to be around her.

Or my immigration status. I don't have papers ("prop. documentation" for those who don't know what i'm saying) and that gets in the way. I remember one church telling me that they wouldn't donate because I was illegal. What a pinche drag. How encouraging is that for me....it really makes me feel like keeping up with my calling.