I'm waiting for Debra to come back with my truck so I can go over to my friend Eric's apartment. He is having a get together. He told me he was cooking Italian food. I'm not really hungry though. So, I'm problably not gonne eat. I just wanna get out this house. I'm a little dissapointed in myself. I ruined another relationship in my life. It just doesen't seem like I'm mature enough to care for a mate. Everytime I get my self caught up with one thing or another. And I don't feel close enough to anyone here about the way I feel because I don't think they understand. All, I can do is pray and even thats hard to do sometimes. I hope my trip up north will help me get my stuff straight.